morning walk -_____________-"

I walked to work on Tuesday morning
I love to walk whenever I am being troubled

It’s a great way to clear the mind
Or the fact that I had a very heavy breakfast

And I need to walk the pounds away

It only took less than 10mins with car
But it took me almost an hour of walk to reach to the office
I had opt for a short-cut
A new road I’ve only been once
There was once a taxi driver used the road before
I can’t really recall it

But it won’t hurt to have a try

So, Yea, I started my Journey at 8.45am

I walked from my house to the Cempaka LRT Station
And from there I walked to the short-cut
There were houses all along the road
Wooden houses
And lots n lots of factories
And yes, the sun
I didn’t expect it to be so shiny
Should have bring along an umbrella

Speaking of factories
Meaning lots and lots of laborers
Those Bangladesh, Indonesian, Myanmar and many others
These are those moments I wish to have all the men killed

As if they haven’t seen a women in their entire life
Along the way
I’ve heard “fewwwittt” “amoii” “leng lui”
Honestly though there are lots of people there
But it did frightened me
As most of the population there were these maniacs

So I decided to get the hell of the freaking place
But I am stucked in that place

Honestly I don’t even know where I was!!
I looked for a road to connect me back to the main road
I saw lots of cars heading to a direction
So I followed

That’s what my great-grandma thought me
When you are lost
Look at the cars around you
Head to the direction where most cars heading to
As that must be the way out to the main road
So I happily heading to that direction

And my thought was yeah, that’s the road that will get me somewhere near my office
But as I approached the main road
I was quite worried
As the place is still so 'new' to me

But I calmed myself
Elooo.. I can get a taxi anytime when I reached the main road
And yes!
I saw a quite familiar name
“Kilang Versatile”
I’ve seen that factory before!!
So it meant I am not that lost!!

And when I finally out of that freaky housing/factories area
To the main road
Only then I found out
I am just somewhere near my house
Goosshh!!!

All the walk
If I were to follow the main road and not the short-cut
It will only take me few minutes to reach to where I stand at that moment

I wanted to grab a cab
But I didn’t and I continued my walk
And yes follows the main road
And yes, there were lots of drivers would look at me
And yes, some like those maniacs too
Some I do returned a smile
Some I just ignored and continue walking

And yes I reached the office around 9.35am!!

Just like in our life
Most the time we said “no hurts to give a try”
Is that so??!!
Sometimes a wrong decision killed

A wrong try ends up lots of unnecessary miseries

Many advised me he isn’t the one
I ignored their advices
Thinking “it doesn’t hurt to give a try”
I love him
I wanted to give us a chance
And now I am left dazed, confused and hurt

And yes sometimes when we thought yeah! we reached our goal
Only to find that there is still a long way to go!
Our life is a real long journey
It hurts when we followed the wrong directions
And especially me! turn and turn and back to where I started!
But never give up

It is still a long way
And I won’t know what’s ahead if I don’t continue the walk

I sent him a few very nasty messages weeks ago
I felt very bad ever-since
Because it just made me feel like a complete bitch
I should have just let him alone
No,not should..I must!!
Just like those people I saw on that morning
Some I smiled and some I just walked away
Yes, we should appreciate and cherish people while we still can
And I wanted him to be in the list

But I know it’s impossible

I sent him a message and apologized
At least now I can really let go
We don’t owe each other anything anymore
And this time I’ve lost not just the relationship
And the friendship
And the chance of us being friends
That is not an option for me

That is the only way to get me out of all these emotional messiness