let go?!! wat to let go?!!

Went out with a friend of mine on last Friday night for a girly talk

I know she needed a listener .. Or should I say ..we both in need of listeners
There we are.. confided in each other our bumps when we should be out having fun

And that’s when I found out .. It doesn’t kill to miss someone
It is when you are missing someone..And you cant let anyone around you know

And you have to hide all the feelings ..And keep them all out of sight
That's what kills
It is hard when things turn awful
But it is even harder to act “ok” when the hearts is bleeding

But u have no choice but doing so.. Because.. excuse me, hello, I am 25 now!!
I cant call up my friends and tell them how much the break-up hurts me
Most my friends are married with kids!
And do i need to remind myself that they never bless the relationship..


When I am home, I sent this angel of mine a sms
I told her that night will be the last time I’ll ever want to mention or talk bout him

Ever again ..I am really tired, extremely exhausted having to go through the hurts again and again


He finally apologized for not keeping his words

But does it mean anything anymore to me?
Will it make me feel better?
It sure does if he will to realize it before he made the comes back
One of my angel joked with me the other day, she said it is too late for me to know the truth now She is right .. It is too late

And while I was watching the football match this morning

My lovely little brother, Nickie sent me a sms
He said he is disappointed with me,reading my blogs gave him the impression that I am still not letting go
And if he will ever read my blog again
I will want to tell him something.. haha
He always felt sorry to me..thinking that he is the one that got me think of the past
And I always tell him “no, it’s not your fault”

But this time, It is his fault! Haha.. I will never want to think of him and he got me thinking!

And this morning, a friend of mine said he is in a love-crisies
I told him I am a loser in love too soI can’t contribute any advices
Just one..“If you really love that someone, don’t let go”
That is all I can say ..
And he asked me what makes me let go then?

And a sweet hunky I met through friendster "Brian"
too poped the same question after he viewed my private photos

And I replied.. I never let go.. how can I let go on something I don’t have
So yes now, this blog, this page, will be the last time I will ever mention bout him!!

Praise the Lord!!
HE must be waiting for a long time to finally hear this from me!
Thank U Lord..for everything..and most importantly..for not giving up on me..
Honestly..I am most blessed in my life the moment I got to know Jesus!
Hallelujah..If not because of Him..I will not survive till today!
Love U Lord!