MY LOVE..SORRY

Jux bek from my supper!! FULL!!!
It will be awhile till I will have time to update tis blog as tomolo I will need to return tis broadband to my fren oooOO..
n till I get bek my connection..hoho..will seldom get to c me online loo..

Plus wit the new hectic timetable!!
Sob sob sob..it will be FULL DAY for 3 DAYS!!! 1 HALF-DAY on morning! n onli "CLASS-LESS" (hoho..guess there is no such word..means NO CLASS) on MONDAY!!
YaYa..for those who still have no clue and kept asking me wat m i working as now..
Im bek to study at Kemayan ATC..d end of Petaling Street..
LOL..No need to find me for lunch loo..Just tapau @ deliver for me will be the best!! Muahahhahaha!!

Ermmm...so happen while waiting for my tren tis noon..I was busy deleting some contacts in my phonelist..
Hohoho..Im used to delete names!!
Lol..there are 5 DANNYs' in my phonelist!!
I dun even know who is who!!
I just want to save DANNY from DC..but I couldnt delete the names yet cox I still cant figure out wich num is Danny from DC..but deleted 2 cox I know he is using 016! ahahahaa!!
I come acrossed a name..YUP..Im bek to Malacca for a One-Day trip on Sunday :-*
Dead tired!! Onli stop by at A-FAMOSA n went to the Safari..n it's just LOLZZzz!!
Katty told me I should jux give him a call den Muahahhaa..will have a free driver!
Den I wun just bek to Malacca..every weekend I can visit further places!!
Penang..I've always wanted to go there to taste the foods!!!
Previously can say I "ter"- means accidentally got him hurt..
NiaSing..how I know a few sms n gifts will got him felt dat Im giving him chances..
LOL..he bought me some gifts...to return the gifts seems like very kiasu..
People give den NiaSing..how old oredi ohh..still wanna push n pull meh..take loh..
Den in return..I bought him bek someting loo..normal de mah..
I din realised sometimes wen Im too nice to someone..they will get the wrong signal..
Wen I rejected him in a very good manner lah...he still got upset..
But if tis time I reali flirt with him den it means I purposely and intenionally hurting him..
And NiaSing..knowing how much it hurts to be hurt..Im tinking of doing the same to another person onli becox I know he is interested in me?
NiaSing! Wat a bitch!! Ahahahaa!!
But surely I wun do so!!
Frens said maybe in time..I will be touched by him..if I give him the chance..
But NiaSing..sometimes it's reali hard to explain..He is quite a pretty boy too n treated me well but I jux dunwan him to get near to me!! Ahahaha!!

Den at nite wen I was out..NiaSing..I saw one of my Ex-
I felt so uneasy seeing him so close wit other gals...NiaSing!!
But it makes me realise..How come it took me almost a decade to finally let go of him...
But it takes just a new person for me to forget d next one in gosh..a snap of fingers!!
Do I reali "LOVE" them or Im just unknowingly treated them as a Mr.Rebound...
I mean..I hardly know them..Im oredi hooked up wit them wen I dun even knw their names in full! Hate to admit but I've oredi fall head over heels over them in just a few meet-ups..
Yup the relationship doesnt last..I was hurt..I cried..but it took just d next person..AWHILE to get me forget bout the previous one..as if it's become a cycle!!
It's dat Im easily drawn to de others as they care for me wen I was broken-hearted?
Or I wanna prove n show to him dat except him..there are still be others dat will be interested in me?
Teng..Ya..U are rite!! I reali dunno wat exactly Im doing..ahahhaa..

Watever it is..
(never wanna dwell bek much into the past!! YUCKS!! ahahaha!!)
I thank d Lord for dis great awakening!!
I will never wanna say or listen to SORRY anymore..
As wen someone uttered d word "SORRY" ..It's oredi too late..

The hurts is oredi there..
Im reali sorry for all the hurts I've got myself n others thru in my so call-LOVE..

SORRY..will never wanna listen it from myself or anyone EVER!!!

zzzZZzzzz

it's 7:02am now..
woke up an hour ago..
cant reali fall bek to sleep..
headache plus stomach cramps...
but de part dat realli hurts is from d ....
why do I always love to dig holes de leh...

"Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkinku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cinta ku padamu..."

"Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh..
Seakanku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggal kan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud..."


wat is LOVE?

Love is patient,
Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.
Love never fails...
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

tis is d description dat the Lord use for LOVE..
but why wen it comes to LOVE..d onli ting dat comes to my mind is HURT..
how much can someone sacrifice for LOVE?
or should say how much more hurts it takes for me to finally learn to LET GO..

在我最后一次，
闭上眼睛之前，
我想对你说..我爱你，
在你怀里，
舍不得放弃，
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力，
不想闭上眼睛，
至此告别就不能再相遇，
不能再陪你..
但不要忘记，
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
IM NOT WRITING IN MANDARIN YO!
BUT NIASING..SURELY I UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF THE ABOVE WORDS LOR!
YA..I CANT READ MANDARIN BUT DENG..I'VE GOT FRENS DAT DO MAH!!
N IN TIS WORLD...
THERE ARE TINGS KNOWN AS COPY+PASTE+TRANSLATE!!!

It a lyric for a song…I find it very touching and indeed veli sweet especially the last part wen it says..
“U promised me u will live ur life well”

How nice + luply dat a breakup can end in such harmony scenario..
Wit blessings n wishes n caring for each other..
But not wit tears, curses and hurts..
It's just so sad to see two souls dat used to mean so much to each other..
The close-ties dat once shared will be covered by hatred..

And before I start to write anything more..
I will wanna say a big big muacks n sori for everyone ya!!
Dat I lost my cool on last friday nite n dat I’ve lied to all of u!!
Wen everyone being puzzled why I cried on Friday nite..Muahahhaha!!!
I replied..the answer is in my blog..read it,u will understand..
Muahahhaha n some reali anxious + caring frens reali did immediately read n called me up n tell me they dun get it oh..
Of cox loh..Muahahhaa..Im just promoting my blog lah..
Im sori dat I got all u all worried and surely m very touching and moved by all ur carings n concerns..
Ermm..just can say dat I had too much dat nite..n lets just end all it there ya..

And will wanna say a big big luply HAPPY SWEET 18 to luply Evon!!
Deng!! Wen Im wit all d puffy eyes den onli she came to snap pics wit me…
LOL…can c my eyes were all swollen in d pic!!

Now let us bek to our topic..
Why do breakup mostly end up with disaster..most commonly loo..
To me..It will turn nasty wen it happens out of a sudden!!
No one will want to caught in some awful surprises..
However after ermmmm..some talks..in good manners lah..
Not those shouting n yelling ones..
Surely one party will felt the hurt n the unwillingness to accept
Lol..Actuali I hate tis saying..
If u love someone,u dun need to have them
Aiks…(waaahhhhhhh…why why why cant I have him?!!!)
Muahahahhaa!!
Wat can I say is,if its urs,Den it is..
If its not urs..Den it shouldn’t started at all..
Cox whether u like it or not..It will be gone..
Yaya..I know some may say..Its easy for me to say so..
Niasing!! Wat easy?! Its hard for me to swallow those lousy words as well k?!!

It's never easy to finally find someone u luv..
Given the chance,hold on to it tightly but if it's fated dat it should be over..
Den at least..END IT GRACEFULLY (CHEWAH!!) den bitterlly loo..
It's neve an option wen it comes to breakup..whether it is in good or bad terms..
Even u dun wanna let go and still hold on tight
The truth is.. he/she oredi walked away…

Love is something reali strange and Aiks…
How many can reali have a fairtytale ending...
Most of us will end up getting hurt..
So..to avoid hurt..YES!! the best option is not to fall in love anymore!!!

Muahahhahaa..LOL..wen I tell my frens I wanna be single for d rest of my life
D reactions..Muahahaahhaha ... "DFF @ die far far lah” !!!!
Cox haahhahaha..trully.. I am such a sucker for love as Im easily moved..
I fall in love so quick..I fall out of it even quicker..hohoho!!!
One minute I am all over you..The next minute I am already over you!

I did found one special person that I am totally in-love with
I still love him.. I’ll always will in-Christ
I can never thank the Lord enough for knowing him..
Though v’ve known each other for a reali short period of time
He changes my views in lotsa things

Feeling the pain of a past relationship is perfectly normal
However clinging to those feelings n bringing them into a new relationship is wat causes the strain..
If the issues are not addressed..they become a cycle..

Wen v first met,v were both left shatterted n broken-hearted..
He neve did left a deep impression on me except Muahahhaa at my first glance..he is a pretty boy oh…Hohoohohoho ~~
Over till later.. thankfully wit his supports n concerns I successfuli pull myself out of a terrible misseries!
Dats wen I pray I can do the same for him..
He is a sweet person.. and I wanted him to be happy as dat is wat he deserved to..

Thus,I am grateful dat he is being honest wit me..
Wen v are in a relationship,make sure v are in it for the right reasons..
If not ..End it..
At least it cut the grieft off my heart den it step too deep..
At least v still laugh+ jokes+steam-boating n d best online together rather den tearing each other heart apart wit hurtful remarks+comments..
So he shouldn’t be sorry for anything
Instead I should thank him for all the sweet memories dat he brings into my life..
And dun slam d door so quick lah..LOL..NiaSing ah..k lah..wun KIONG MAN (force a kiss) u de lah..

Bb jing.. 不要忘记,你曾经答应我你会好好活下去…luv u..Muackkss

Woman-Beater..

Wen Im writing tis post..It is 5.30am..
I should and was deep deep babi-ing but was awaken by some reali terrifying screams!!!
WWWaaaaahhHHH…AAhhhHHHHahHHHHH….
I first thought it's from the cats..
U know loh..Wen the cats got in a fight..before they fight..they will like us human loh.."gong so or liu liu(deal-deal)” or “fathau-ing-(flirting)”..
Deng..the noises…
Listen n Listen n Listen …Confirmed!!! It's a woman cries!!!!
It's few blocks from my house..

Looked out from the window,I can see my other neighbours are too looking for the source of the anguish cries…
And if I will get to know wich house it is..I will immediately call POLICE!!!
Tis is not the time to mind our own business..
Tis is the time to show BUSINESS!!!

Woman-Beater…
Fark…
Wen I heard of news of Rihanna dropped her charges on Chris Brown..
Like the rest of the world..I find dat she is a really NiaSing..muahahhaaha…
And I pray dat one day God will strengthen her and and grant her wisdom to walk away from dat farking jerk and hand him over to the authorities..
He is sori for wat he done?
Great! Den go to jail and pay for it!!!!
LIU NIASING!!

I wonder how many dats around me facing the same hurtful experiences like Rihanna…
No excuses should be accepted
Liu NiaSing…
Can anyone imagine the terror of the person being beaten up by someone dat's supposingly protecting them..
And if u give them a chance..
Guess wat..
Just make sure U know a clinic real well cox there is CONFIRMLY a 100% repeating of such farking NiaSing acts!!!
I din say tis for fun..Surveys reported any family matters dat's involved violence..in 10 cases..Yup! There is a repeat of dat 10 cases!!

I never knew how much difference of a man strength wit a woman
Until my handbag was snatched few years ago..
The gugu was asking for direction and suddenly he just pulled my bag..
Liu Niasing him ah..
It seems like he is not even using any strength..
But I fell down so hard on the ground and my leg was all bleeding..

Just imagine..
How can someone say they luv U wen they can simply lay their farking NiaSing hands on U?!!!
Ya..Gals tend to be soft-hearted and V can easily forgives..
BUT PLEASE DUN DO SO!!!
REPORT TO THE POLICE!!!
AND NO MATTER WAT EXCUSE OR EXPLANATION..
U DUN DESERVE TO SUCH A HIDEOUS NIASING ACTS!!

Run away!!
Dun tink of putting bek a fight .. U cant win ..
But Yup..Get out from the place ASAP!!

He is standing on the way?
Run to some open spaces..Like to de house balcony as most commonly happened in houses..
Ya..dats wat tis farking niasing cowards does..
Tis farking bastards will only dare to show their NiaSing strength in closed–places!!!
Hold on to someting and SCREAM FOR HELP!!!
If u cant make the exit and force to fight bek..
Dun fight dat NiaSing wit bare hands loh..
Throw things at the farking gugu!!
Dats wat v called SELF-DEFENSE!!!

As a Christian...Yes,V are told to fogives as the Lord forgives..
But Jesus also did warned us to stay away from all the negative sources..
The Lord loves Us so terribly muchie.. He died on the cross for Us..
We are very very precious…
How much do U tink it will hurt the Lord to see us being hurt in such a way?
He blesses us a brain ..to think.. to difference the good and the bad..
U know it’s a bad things..
Den walk away..

And tis farking bastards should pay the price for the hurts they caused!!!
Not only physically but mentally..
The nightmares of waking up in the middle of the nite..
The brusises on the skin..d outward appereance will recover but wat's about the heart?
It will be a life-time scars

I have a fren dat's been thru such hellish moments…
She told me she can recall so vividly the times of her got beaten up by her spouse…
9 hellish times!!!

But the only prob here is..she cant even recall the reason why he did it!!
As if it's oredi been a common ting for him!!
But YES!! He will always make sure my fren believed he did it becox he is right and my fren did something terribly wrong!
Dat he is UNWILLINGLY & BEING FORCED to PUNCH,SLAP and PUSHES her all around!!!
And praise the Lord..on the 9th times..She walked away
Guess she had the worse on dat night..
Though it sounds abit late but at least Yes..Praise d Lord again..She left..
Just like Rihanna case..after the news..frens of her coming out and make statements dat is not the first time she was seen wit brusies and marks on her…

Have U ever wish U can get bek to de past and make a change on something..
Such a space-travel stuffs…muahahahaaa..like d Doraemon ting..
My fren once told me ..
If given such a chance,she will make sure he is trully sori..not only thru words..for wat he has done..
Muahahahaaa…
She regretted so much dat she din report it to the police
And let him repeat it so many times!
It might be happening to another innocent gal now..
Wen I heard dat…I felt terribly bad and sori too for not doing wat I should wen I knew bout the news..
Yes..Staying by their side and support and encouragement are very important
But the one ting wich is the most important is to knock some senses on them and get help!!

Help them out..Walk away from those bastards!!!
Rihanna Dad..Damn dat gugu…supports Rihanna decisions on getting bek wit Chris Brown!!!
Liu Niasing..apa punya bapak?? (was kind of father is tis??!!!)

I wish dat bastard..I cant use gugu to describe him cox he dun even deserves dat title!!
He is to me a farking NiaSing coward witout gugu!!
I really hope he will read tis…or frens or family members of his..
Tell him to STAY FAR AWAY FROM MY FREN!
Yes..She tot dat She can forgets it as time goes by and forgives him…
She is those idiotic type dat forgives easily…Muuahahhahaha!!!
But guess wat..SHE CANT AND I WILL NOT LET HER!!!
She wishes him dead everytime she goes to a cinema for a movie..
Any fighting scenes will make her wanna run out from d room as soon as she possibly can..
U are sorry for wat U did?
Great!!! Den U go and die fast and far!!
Wen I say go to die..I really mean it!!
D.I.E…DIE..GO AND DIE !!
U dun need to do so infront of us .. we will eventually get the news..Muahahahaha!!
Dat's d onli way for U to repay wat U’ve done and prove to her for the final time dat U are trully sori!!!
If u cant do so..den please FARK OFF FAR AWAY from her life!!!
Save the farking sori for Urself!!!

Just the tots of bumping him on the street!!!
GOSH!!!!!!!!!!
Wish he will be knocked down by a car right infront of me!!!!
I am being cruel and unforgiving?!!
Tell me onli after U’ve been in my fren shoes...

Unfaithful Lovers

Liu….

Deng…
Soli ya…it's not dat I puposely wanna start my writing wit all tis %$@!#!!
But it's my eye eye..ermm..the right side one..hurts like..AMMMAAAAHHH!!
Cry Cry mah? Dat's why de eye hurt hurt? SOLI!!!
NO!! IT IS NOT!!
Hoho.. cox jux now I rub some oilment on my tummy loo..and being the ever clumsy me..

I removed my lenses witout washing my hand…hohoho..
The oilment is veli de MUJARAB (its a malay word ya..cant recall wat it calls in english oh..search it in dictionary on ur own lah ya...) as U can reali c de instant result!!
Cox I have constipation..hoho..de oilment reali works veli well on me!
Now u c c my tummy big big..
ZEEEEeeeNNgggg…
Tomolo..flat flat oredi..muahahhaha
Dats my secret of DARE TO EAT!!!
Ermmm..but piece of advise is..hoohooo..rub it on wen u r at home ..better alone loo
Cox it will make de gas gas out of ur body oh..meaning farting loh..FONG PEI!!!

Lately I met lotsa new frens n surely will muahahhaha promote my blog loh…Muahahhaa!!!
And thanks ya for everyone dat spend their time to read my writing..hohoho..

Erm..how do I wanna start tis time ya..
Unfaithful lovers…
How will u deal wit it?

I have a fren who is still veli muchie in touch wit his Ex-
Den on one Liu Niasing nite..I TER-....

TER..means accidentally lah..not purposely..
I TER-found out bout their still-on-off-on-off..push-push-pull-pull-relationship…

Deng..like Ms.Loh Li Chin case loh..
Funny part is the gal kept saying dat the one dat she is so absofarkinglutely in lup wit is my fren and not her current beau…
The one dat she is dreaming n wishing n praying to be wit is my fren n not her bf..
But she stills wit the guy.. -________________________-"

Funny leh..u all oso like me loh..clueless..
Bui?!!! Like dat den why still wanna be wit dat guy leh?
Why dun breakup leh?

Sob Sob..

Cox..

Sob Sob..

He is veli nice to me loh..
I dunno how to tell him off..in a good way cox I dunwan him to get hurt...

FARK!!! COMPLETE NONSENCE!!!
It's either her current bf is truli a retarded idiot or else I just dunno how to describe his feelings…
At first..I felt sori for both my fren n his Ex-..
I wonder why they stay apart wen they both wanted to be wit each other badly?

Den I come to realise ..the real victim here is not my fren n his Ex...
It’s the gal current beau..
Gosh…I not onli feel terribly sori for him but pity him…
He fell in lup wit such a wrong person…
And d gal..Liu!!!! Make it as she is being victimised!!!
Wen she sms my fren n still calling my fren “HUBBY” “LO GONG” n all the farking "MISS U" "LOVE U " OUR PROMISES" " U REMEMBER MAH? ..TIS AH..DAT AH"..…

LIU!!!
Did she ever tink of her bf feelings?
And it's dat not hurting him?
She is betraying his trust on her!
The one dat should be crying n feel sad certainly not HER but HIM!!!

Sob Sob Sob..

Im so pressured..

I dunno wat to do..
I oredi told him..
My heart..

My mind..

My soul..

My everything onli got U..

No him..
But still he dunwan to let go of me oh ..

Wat to do …

Sob Sob Sob Sob....

Liu..
Did she reali tell her bf dat or she is faking it n telling others she did?
If she reali did said those stuffs to her bf n dat gugu still wanna hold on to her..

Den..
Like I said loh..it's either dat gugu is reali a complete idiot,If not gosh..I just cant tink of a possible reason for him to still coupling wit her..
I mean..Liu..U are being wit someone dat tell U face to face..

"Eii....

U know wat??!!

I dun love U at all..

D one n onli person I ever luv n wanted to be is my Ex-..

He is my everyting..n I wanna marry him..

Marrying him is my dream”

Lucky dat I dun knw dat gugu or else I will reali slap dat gugu gao gao (means hard hard)!!!

Muahahahaaa....

Aikss…Maybe dat's de trend now..Cox they are all still darn young..in their early 20s...
But can age be an excuse to act n behave immature and to hurt others??!!

Yes..Im a real fool in love as well..
No one can reali comes up wit the real meaning of wat is love…
But tis is certainly not rite!!!

If onli I can meet her in person..I will wanna tell her..
Please stop de farking acts and stop saying
She loves someone wen at the same time she is hurting someone so badly…
Love isn't like dis..
If she reali dun like d guy,she can just leave..
Why still clings on to him?
Dunwan to break his heart??..He dunwan to let go??..
FARK!!! PIG-SHIT!!!

It takes 2 person to say YES to begin a relationship..
But wen it comes to breakup..It onli take one person to say OVER..
So..Stop all those farking lame excuses n yaya....She will say she is hurt but it's her dat hurting herself and got all tis so complicated!!!
Wat bout her bf??

She is hurting him more den she can ever imagine…

And is tis how she always say..I DUNWAN TO HURT HIM…

YAYAYA.. guess i got her point…

FARK-OFF FAR!!!!