MakeLove (VS) Have Sex

Sex partner.What rings into ur mind when u heard of it? Sex partner viewed as a partner to have sex with no responsibility in between.For some it’ll be better than one nite stand cox with a sex partner,u know each other and u will continually meeting up till one party call it quits

Elisha,after breaking up with her boyfriend,they still secretly meet up and yes,being his sex partner.She knew it is wrong but Yeah,love will make a fool even worse.She wanted to see him and the way she gets to see him is to be his sex partner.

She told herself she will be okay.It won't hurt her.Everytime the guy walk off,my phone will rang.I’ll hear her crying uncontrollably on the other side.She kept telling herself dat she won't cry anymore,everytime, before the meet up and she ended up in tears for almost 2 years.

Ask mothers that gives births.Do they in pain during labour times? The answer will definately be “like hell!” So much pain! No matter that is the third times or the fourth even the fifth times,the pain is there.
Yes,it is weird.There will be things that’ll hurt us so much no matter how many times we are caught in the same situation.

Finally she call it quit as she never wanted to end up losing the friendship too.She thought by starting a new chapter with someone new,she'll able to eventually moves on.Thats all her friends advises.That's what I call a Mr.Rebound and it will never be a wise decision as she still clings on to the past promises.The end was inevitable,she ended up with more hurts.
A very good friend of ours,Dalphne said,sometimes in life,things won't be fair all the time.We love dat special someone.We wanted to spend our live loving and being loved by them.Unfortunately,not all end up being Cinderella.A fairy-tale ending.We can stil continually in love with that person but we can never show it.We can only love them in your heart.They can only reside in our heart.

Making love and having sex, what the differences? Same actions..Hahahe..Yes,the spelling is different.And it’s with a huge difference meaning!!
Making love, yes, there’s a word, Love, that’s the highest level of communication, where two souls truly blend together,its based on love as foundation.
Having sex, it is too based on a word dat starts with L, thats Lust. Will it be romantic..U tell me..
If ur partner ever gives u the feelings dat you are just having sex,then,there’s only one thing u can do for urself,walk away..im wrong,should be RUN AWAY!

Yes, there is stil another way.Foolishly continue to be a fool.Some of us,especially gals are too preoccupied with the year terms.
"O! I’ve been with him for 3 years ..I’ve walked so far..i can't just walk off like this!"
Yes, 3 years,U’ll say it's 3 years,den 4 den 5 years and all the way up.
"He is a bastard but i'm with him for 9 years already!!" Goossshh!!! And yes,for us, gals,how many 9 years we have..the next time u cry,it’ll be 20 years.When u look back,u’ll surely be sorry with yourself.Some will even say,"Cheh! Anytime I can get a divorce.."
Thanks to him,only then I realized that in God,marriage is like our life,we can only have it for one time.We must choose correctly..We only live for once,except all the guy-gal relationship,there’s so much things dat needs our love,our care..
Our relationship with the Lord,with our family,friends and our job
In life,there is no "Take 2" .. Same goes to Marriage.

OMG!! OMGG!! and OMG!!!!

Yesterday evening,I went out with a friend of mine for steamboat! I believe everything happens for a reason.The Lord will never caught in surprises.There is a reason for everything.I agreed to meet Tammy as she is so persistence in seeing me-so badly!! Haha!!

The Lord is truly awesome.This is all I can say.HE must’ve see that I’ve not truly “let go”.I admit that yes,I do accept the fact that we can never be together hand in hands but at least there is stil a room for friendship, not for now but some day later..I am still looking forward for that day to come.And HE send this friend of mine as a messenger to tell me “NO!”

Tammy told me she once went out for a dinner with him.A group of them.She asked him do he has my contact number,as there were few months I had temporarily changed my number.He said “No,he don’t have and he don’t know” , The way he replied gave her the impression that he dont know me well..OMG!!! Is that real?? Am I listening well? Gossshhh!! Then,who the heck that slept right next to me?? OMG, OMG and OMG!!! I asked her again,is she sure he is the one replying and when was that.

She confirmed he is the one and she is surprised to find out that I am in a relationship with him when she read my blog.The first post,I attached a picture of him!!! My God!!! How could he??!!! How can I ever forgive him??!!! I am a sinner myself..i commited a lot of sins,I ‘ve no right to judge him..but how can I ever forgive him??!! It really freaking hurt me!! He denied my existence long before we finally call it quit!! I am speechless!!

I should be out having drinks later on and catch the game, Spain (vs) Russia with frens,but I headed home after the dinner.It is hard enough for me to see him doing tremendously well-back on track soon after the break-up, as it doesn’t mean anything to him at all and it eats me up to know now that he never leave the track at all.

I called up Sharmaine,I needed someone to talk to.I didn’t burst into tears. This time is just too much. There’ll be no more tears from me for this person.And can I ever thank the Lord enough for this amazing young lady-Sharmaine? I’ve known her for 12 years!! We had a fun conversation,laughing our heart out.After we ended the call,she sent me a message.She said she too read my blog and realized how much hurt Ive been thru.

When we see someone being cut by a knife,we know it hurts,surely it does.But the only person that know how much it actually hurts,it’s the one that being cut by the knife.And yes,it hurts awfully much.

Sometimes I will wish I can take my heart out from my body as it just too much pain.I cry the moment I wake up.I cry in the bathroom.I cry when I am getting ready to work.In the office,i cry in the toilet and I cry myself to sleep.I am truly blessed that in all the pit-falls that I fell into,Sharmaine is always there to pull me up! Thank U, Jesus, for this angel U’ve sent to me.

I deleted all the remaining sms that I still keep in my mobile.The gifts,the 3 gifts that I’v e kept for years,it's with the MPAJ now.Threw them all into the bin! The pictures,tear it into pieces.Never thought I’ll acted such a way! I've always thought there were times he trully in love with me. I blame myself most the time for not being a better lover that I let him walked away so easily. I should be more understanding, he said he is busy,I should’ve trusted him and have more confidence in him! Goossshhh!!! I am stupid to think maybe for one second he actually care! He never once being commited.
Everything he said,everything he did..everything is just lies!!

I’ll stil in the dark if I had not been out with this friend of mine.Thanks to her too.Don't feel bad for telling me. I am indeed very grateful u did.

For me to ever trust a guy again? It will confirmly takes a long deal of time to recover.
Sis.jon once told me,she is sick for getting hurt in a relationship.She wanted to be a wicked person,to protect herself from being a victim again.I told her that is not the way, turning ourself into one of those lousy person,will that make us feel better,it wont,it’ll make us no difference from them.

Now,I just want to spend all my time,my love and my energy towards the people that truly cares for me,my mum and surely all my angels in my angels listing.
And to all my friends that I've always "aeroplane/fong fei ke" not keeping my word,it won't happen anymore!Haha,hopefully!! Cheers to Friendship!!
And Yes! Spain won!!!! Cheerssssss!!!!!

u have me for 24/7!!

I had known Jasmine,if u had read the bulletin I posted in Friendster,u’ll know the name had been changed due to some lessons learnt in the past.I posted a story bout my CEO and he read it -_-" and the rest is history and yes! lesson learnt!!

For those whom haven’t read it before,I’ll introduced u to this angel of mine.Jasmine,I've known her for 5 years now..goosshh..time really flies! She is such a lovely young lady.Everyone in the office said she looks so much like Gigi Leong Weng Kei, the Hong Kong actress and singer.Even the malay colleagues said so!! She is smart, cheerful and she is a darling!!!

She loves to laugh and her laughter’s turns to tears ever since she met this ‘DH’! I almost lost count of the numbers she cried infront of me because of this jerk! It certainly rip me apart too, seeing her in such a mess and the only thing she ever did wrong is to fall in love with the DH!!

She sent me several messages on Tuesday night and I certainly understand very well how she felt. She asked, is she an idiot?, honestly, to me she isn’t. The real idiot is the DH! She continued by asking me is he serious with her? I replied,Yes,Sure.Surely he is serious in making her a fool.Surely he is serious in hurting her and without a doubt, surely he is serious to get her on his bed.

Sis.Jon once told me she felt that we are living in a fake world.I told her,it would be so nice if we are really in a fake world,at least we realise everything is fake and we wont fall in love with fake words.We get touched and we fell in love with them,with their promises only to find out..it is all lies..it is fake.

Jasmine told me it hurts her to be in that situation but it also hurts her to let go.She once commented that whenever I talk to her, as if I am in her shoes, that I understand so well whats in her heart.She is right.I do.I’ve been through it.Thanks to another angel of mine, Sharmaine, I am able to pull myself out from the misery.

I can still be in what he regards as the on/off relationship.Anytime, it’s my call, I can call it on and I can call it quit, anytime!. I will just need to wait patiently for him to come over and look for me when he feels like it.I will still get to see him, few times a month. I tried,like my angel, Jasmine did.Yeah, it hurts to be with him but it hurts to let go.I want to still get to see him.Saying no means I don’t get to see him anymore.

And thankfully,it dont take long for me to finally walk away. I am not as strong as I thought I am. I cried everytime the calls went unanswered,not for a day but for days..I don’t have the courage to even ask him why he don’t answer the calls..because I know it will be all lies.Do he knows that his actions hurts me? Surely he does! But will he cares? I don’t think I need anyone to tell me the answer.I believe Jasmine had the answer too.

I just want her to know,as a friend,I will never want her to go thru the awful experiences that I once been thru.But if she stubornly,haha,just like me,choose to fall into the arms of the DH,I will always be there for her.Anytime she needed someone,I will be there.she will never walk alone.We will never be alone,our Abba Father is here,right beside us.
And to another angel of mine,Sharmaine,she is truly my guardian angel.I can never thank the Lord enough for her.

To all the jerks and bitches outhere,just wish you all well in hell! Goossshhh..they got me cursing again!! Haha!!
And yes, DH stands for Dick-Head!! Haahahaa

the nite ends perfect!!

I am still very much alive! woke up at 7 this morning, thought I would’ve at least sleep till 8!
Last night was great! Ends well..haha..drink and drunk but didn’t passed out! No vomiting! and wake up this morning with a big smile! And a big eyes too..i mean swollen eyes..garfiled eyes..
Many said to avoid getting drunk,put salt or the sour plum in the drink ..tell u what! NONSENSE!
But I do love to add sour plums in my drink because it makes it tastier! Haha! To avoid getting drunk,surely only one way-dont drink too much! Haha! Basically,for me,I'll just make sure I've had enough sleep!

Got home from work,lie on the bed,wanna get some sleep but couldn’t.So I watched the 8pm news while getting ready to go out, that’s when I realized the importance to vote! Haha! Getting a bit political here!
The opposition parties,named the Parti Pakatan Rakyat tried to oppose the government to rise up the fuel price and want the price back to RM1.92 but they failed as the votes isn’t enough..simply because they have only a few members in the Parlimen! Goosshh! If there is a survey done to the “rakyat”, 100% except those ass-kisser, will never agreed to the nonsense of increasing the price!

I get set and headed out.Saw lots of long lost friends.And I made some new friends, they asked for numbers and the ever sweet me will politely gives but the ever bitchy me will never pick up the calls.Haha..Honestly I am a very lazy person..a very lazy one till the stage I am lazy to even chat on the phone..some reading this will say “true or not?” haha..I can chat non-stop at times..Some I do will keep in touch,those whom really leaves an impression to me,I’ll saved their numbers immediately at that moment,those I dun bother to save,meaning I dun want to be bother..Haha

And one of the guy,Ah Mun, a friend of my friends cried infront of me! aikss,supposingly the nite should be fun but the guy cried infront of me!!! He just broke up..months ago.He is sad.I told him it is normal to be sad.He said the reason the girl left him is because he isn’t rich..and he mumbled all the girls are materialistic!
Let me put it this way,that is not materialistic,that is just being REALISTIC! I don’t like the idea of some gals that will look for someone to pay their bills, don’t get me wrong,I dont have problems for guys paying my bills! I love it! Haha!

Then he asked me why and why his girl left him in such despair..Gosshh,as if I know his gal,Haha,I just met him hours ago,left alone his gal..I told him something I get from a drama I watched..
A hong kong drama-"A journey called life" ,a very meaningful and touching drama!
In it, the actor said, there are lots of reasons when two souls get together but there is only one reason when they parted away, the love isn’t there anymore..
No matter how hard u try to save a relationship,it will be useless because the main and upmost ingredient -“love” isn’t there anymore

I told him if he want to cry den just cry.If he want to be angry with that gal den just let it be.Curse her if he wanted to,I mean we are all humans,not saint,after all those hurt, still wish them well? Damn rite! Wish them well in hell! Haha!

And the night ends well,May droved me home,thanks May!
Reached the house,cried a little,haha, that’s why my eyes were swollen!
Went to bed once I had my bath
Woke up this morning and feels good!

drink..drunk & passed out..dats just NORMAL!

Tonite I will be out having drinks, haven’t been out for a drink for quite some time..
I mean a real “drink”..Hahaha. Wonder how the night will ends..Haha

Everyone were surprised when they found out that I am staying alone
That’s the true freedom! I can get drunk shockingly easy!
But I always managed to get home before I throw-up!! Clap clap!!
And yes, I get to lie in any part of my house, in whatever position I wanted without having to worry someone will snap a picture of it!
I will never let myself in the room when I am drunk!!

I remembered the 2 times I was really drunk..

The first time was this year, I was with 3 friends of mine
Ah Chan, William and Crystal, we finished up 7 bottles of red wine!!
I just cant recall how we goggled up all the wine
Do I need to elaborate more on how the night ends?
I was so drunk that I was carried into the car..Haha
And I vomited like hell too..in the car..Haha
My friend had to carried me up to the 4th floor,when I was home..suddendly I am all awake!
Basic instinct or I am faking it so someone will carry me up?!!
I shooed them all out, locked the door and rushed to the toilet..
All I remembered..I woke up the next morning..half-dead on my sofa!!

The second time also in this year..Damn! 2008! What a year!
And it was me and a friend of mine.. a gal, Wow..that’s what we called ‘girl power’!! Haha!!
We finished up the whole bottle of Chivas in less than 2 hours!
I am perfectly okay at that time..till I made the biggest mistake of joining another group of friends.I drank a few glasses of beer and I felt the world is spinning around me!
I quickly asked a friend of mine, Dax..a very good looking guy to send me home
He drank quite a lot too that night,the first night I met him was so unforgettable!
He is the first guy I met that 2 gals fighting over for!! I mean a real fight..pulling hair, the cat-claws and my God! That’s all I can say!

The moment we reached my house, he asked me am I okay? do I need escort to go up?
I said No! I am perfectly well..I opened the door and the next thing,I was sitting on the ground..Haha
And he being the gentleman, he quickly got out and carried me up..
And when we reached the third floor, we both fell..I am heavy..Haha..so shy...Haha
And we sit on the staircase, laughing our heart out..when we both grasp some air
I continued up and he back to his car,stayed there till he is okay to drive!
He said I am cruel for not letting him to stay over! Haha…
Yeh,I can be real cruel at times! And bitchy too!!

That will be two of my most unforgettable nites of mishap
Hopefully tonight will ends well! Haha!

let go?!! wat to let go?!!

Went out with a friend of mine on last Friday night for a girly talk

I know she needed a listener .. Or should I say ..we both in need of listeners
There we are.. confided in each other our bumps when we should be out having fun

And that’s when I found out .. It doesn’t kill to miss someone
It is when you are missing someone..And you cant let anyone around you know

And you have to hide all the feelings ..And keep them all out of sight
That's what kills
It is hard when things turn awful
But it is even harder to act “ok” when the hearts is bleeding

But u have no choice but doing so.. Because.. excuse me, hello, I am 25 now!!
I cant call up my friends and tell them how much the break-up hurts me
Most my friends are married with kids!
And do i need to remind myself that they never bless the relationship..


When I am home, I sent this angel of mine a sms
I told her that night will be the last time I’ll ever want to mention or talk bout him

Ever again ..I am really tired, extremely exhausted having to go through the hurts again and again


He finally apologized for not keeping his words

But does it mean anything anymore to me?
Will it make me feel better?
It sure does if he will to realize it before he made the comes back
One of my angel joked with me the other day, she said it is too late for me to know the truth now She is right .. It is too late

And while I was watching the football match this morning

My lovely little brother, Nickie sent me a sms
He said he is disappointed with me,reading my blogs gave him the impression that I am still not letting go
And if he will ever read my blog again
I will want to tell him something.. haha
He always felt sorry to me..thinking that he is the one that got me think of the past
And I always tell him “no, it’s not your fault”

But this time, It is his fault! Haha.. I will never want to think of him and he got me thinking!

And this morning, a friend of mine said he is in a love-crisies
I told him I am a loser in love too soI can’t contribute any advices
Just one..“If you really love that someone, don’t let go”
That is all I can say ..
And he asked me what makes me let go then?

And a sweet hunky I met through friendster "Brian"
too poped the same question after he viewed my private photos

And I replied.. I never let go.. how can I let go on something I don’t have
So yes now, this blog, this page, will be the last time I will ever mention bout him!!

Praise the Lord!!
HE must be waiting for a long time to finally hear this from me!
Thank U Lord..for everything..and most importantly..for not giving up on me..
Honestly..I am most blessed in my life the moment I got to know Jesus!
Hallelujah..If not because of Him..I will not survive till today!
Love U Lord!

"Eye on Malaysia..."

Never really remember the last time I actually
SLEEP..
Ever since I accepted the fact that we cant even be friends
I slept the most 3 hours a day


Tried getting some help with the alcohol
It works

But it got me a real hard time waking up the next day!!

A friend of mine asked
So what did u miss in him
The relationship or the friendship
I said both
I lost both

Many love to ask did I ever regret getting back with him
I said I am very confused too

Yes, he brought me lots of sweet memories
I smile when I recall them

But at the same time..i cry recalling them..

Confusing ya..

Cleaned the house the other day and found my diaries
Found out that I had fallen in love with him in year 2001
Lots of twist and turns

We got back September last year
No one really knows how happy I am inside
I’ve always pray for a day
That he will finally stop walking and take a look behind
And see me standing there all the while

Waiting for him .. haha..I am silly.. I know..

Then we got awful and decided to end it in January this year
Everyone including myself thought “I will be perfectly okay”

It is not the first time
Moreover .. I have been thru things worst than this
And I am still okay

Guess I’ve over-estimated myself ..AGAIN!
It hurts so much that every time I woke up
I felt an indescribable pain in the heart

Or should say..it hurts so much that it woke me up from my sleep

I kept asking the people around me
“why” and “how”

Why he did this to me?
How could he forgets me so easily?
Why why why and why
How how how and how

When I found out that the "Eye on Malaysia" will be extended till this August 2008
I am very happy
I have always wanted to ride the fairy wheel with him
Funnily I had the ride before
But I can't recall I went there with him or with someone else
Because .. scarily.. in all I do..I’ve always wanted him to be the one beside me

I went to a Taiwanese restaurant for lunch
I love the place
And I cant recall if I really been to the place with him before
I been there but is it with him?!
Or someone else ?!!
Because wherever I go
In whatever I do
In my heart
I wanted him to be the person right next to me

And that will always remain as a wishful dream
That will never ever comes true..

two commonly asked questions..

Recently I made a few of new friends
Some through friendster
And 2 introduced by my Sis.Jon
And I am commonly asked these 2 questions

The first one
“Where do you usually go for clubbing?”
Honestly, I don’t really club
Maybe my appearance does the trick
I seldom hit the clubs
Mostly will be 3-4 times in a year!!

People hit the clubs for numerous reasons
Most commonly heard reasons were
“I had a bad day, gotto relax”
“Out chilling with friends”
And the top of the list is
“Get to know new friends!”

I have only one reason for being there
I wish to bump into him
As I know he loves clubbing

I know I am silly
Everywhere I go
I’ll pray I’ll get to see him

I once told him that
And he replied
“Now you don’t need to look around anymore,
I am here right beside you”

He is right.. partly..
I don’t really need to look around anymore
Wishing to bump into him
As that will never be
I’ll never ever get to see him anymore
He is a different person now
He isn’t the one that I am madly in-love with
He just isn’t there anymore

Ok.

The second question
“Why are you still single?”
Goosshh!!
Is that a question??!!
Why am I still single??
I am single Because I am single lor!

I will want to be loved by someone
But I don’t want to rush into it
I’ve always get lots of troubles with
“It won’t hurt to give it a try!”
Damn! It hurts!
And now my new policy is
“Oh, really?!! Thanks but NO!”

morning walk -_____________-"

I walked to work on Tuesday morning
I love to walk whenever I am being troubled

It’s a great way to clear the mind
Or the fact that I had a very heavy breakfast

And I need to walk the pounds away

It only took less than 10mins with car
But it took me almost an hour of walk to reach to the office
I had opt for a short-cut
A new road I’ve only been once
There was once a taxi driver used the road before
I can’t really recall it

But it won’t hurt to have a try

So, Yea, I started my Journey at 8.45am

I walked from my house to the Cempaka LRT Station
And from there I walked to the short-cut
There were houses all along the road
Wooden houses
And lots n lots of factories
And yes, the sun
I didn’t expect it to be so shiny
Should have bring along an umbrella

Speaking of factories
Meaning lots and lots of laborers
Those Bangladesh, Indonesian, Myanmar and many others
These are those moments I wish to have all the men killed

As if they haven’t seen a women in their entire life
Along the way
I’ve heard “fewwwittt” “amoii” “leng lui”
Honestly though there are lots of people there
But it did frightened me
As most of the population there were these maniacs

So I decided to get the hell of the freaking place
But I am stucked in that place

Honestly I don’t even know where I was!!
I looked for a road to connect me back to the main road
I saw lots of cars heading to a direction
So I followed

That’s what my great-grandma thought me
When you are lost
Look at the cars around you
Head to the direction where most cars heading to
As that must be the way out to the main road
So I happily heading to that direction

And my thought was yeah, that’s the road that will get me somewhere near my office
But as I approached the main road
I was quite worried
As the place is still so 'new' to me

But I calmed myself
Elooo.. I can get a taxi anytime when I reached the main road
And yes!
I saw a quite familiar name
“Kilang Versatile”
I’ve seen that factory before!!
So it meant I am not that lost!!

And when I finally out of that freaky housing/factories area
To the main road
Only then I found out
I am just somewhere near my house
Goosshh!!!

All the walk
If I were to follow the main road and not the short-cut
It will only take me few minutes to reach to where I stand at that moment

I wanted to grab a cab
But I didn’t and I continued my walk
And yes follows the main road
And yes, there were lots of drivers would look at me
And yes, some like those maniacs too
Some I do returned a smile
Some I just ignored and continue walking

And yes I reached the office around 9.35am!!

Just like in our life
Most the time we said “no hurts to give a try”
Is that so??!!
Sometimes a wrong decision killed

A wrong try ends up lots of unnecessary miseries

Many advised me he isn’t the one
I ignored their advices
Thinking “it doesn’t hurt to give a try”
I love him
I wanted to give us a chance
And now I am left dazed, confused and hurt

And yes sometimes when we thought yeah! we reached our goal
Only to find that there is still a long way to go!
Our life is a real long journey
It hurts when we followed the wrong directions
And especially me! turn and turn and back to where I started!
But never give up

It is still a long way
And I won’t know what’s ahead if I don’t continue the walk

I sent him a few very nasty messages weeks ago
I felt very bad ever-since
Because it just made me feel like a complete bitch
I should have just let him alone
No,not should..I must!!
Just like those people I saw on that morning
Some I smiled and some I just walked away
Yes, we should appreciate and cherish people while we still can
And I wanted him to be in the list

But I know it’s impossible

I sent him a message and apologized
At least now I can really let go
We don’t owe each other anything anymore
And this time I’ve lost not just the relationship
And the friendship
And the chance of us being friends
That is not an option for me

That is the only way to get me out of all these emotional messiness

one of those days

Today was just one of those days..
Where everything I did reminded me of you
And every song I heard somehow related to you..I hate days like today

Many asked ..Why I posted the picture of me n you in the slide
My answer is..The one that is in the picture is the one that truly loves me
It is a picture taken when 2 persons are truly in love with each otherYes, you are a different person now
You aren’t the same person that was in the picture
It doesn’t matter because the one that I am in love with is the You in the picture
Not the one You are now

People ask …“Are you two going out”
And it hurts to reply..“No, we were just friends”
When the fact we spent the nights in each other embrace

There are times when I cant decide..
Whether to see you or not
I want to see you because I miss you
But at the same timeI don’t want to see you
Because every time I do
The fact that you don’t see me the way
That I see you hurts me even more

Nothing hurts more than realizing you meant everything to me
But I meant nothing to you

I made a choice..To finally let go
Is that a choice...
Or the only way for me

As I can’t stand the pain

Yes..It is better to be alone
No one can hurt me that way
I once heard

“you never truly love a person until the mere thought of you hurting the one you loved
is enough to break yourown heart”
And all I can say is
I truly love you
And you don’t

Friends asked..“ever regret of getting back with him”
I don’t know the answer
How can I explain this feeling

It’s just that
My heart hurts so much …

Some said ..Sometime all I need is a broken heart
To realize that something even better
Is right in front of my eyes
Just waiting to be found
I pray they are right..

You said

“For my case, I can’t love you for all my life,
I can only love youfor eternity”
And your “eternity” only meant for 3 months